One Small Step…


“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”

Jiddu Krishnamurati.



And when I think that I am on my way back to some type of recognisable normality, I stop. I check where I am and where I have come from. I see the mountains and the storm sodden valleys that I have trekked through. I see the paths that I have taken, winding, self-inflicted, but the way that I had to take.

Ahead of me is the world that I called my previous life and for all its promises, I do not trust it.

Why would you drop a being like that into a chaos of madness and lack of belief if your intention was only to drag them through the pain, head first, to be reborn as the same thing that disappeared in there in the first place. It could be a cosmic joke and that may explain why aliens have never made themselves known on Earth. Perhaps they did send down a few emissaries, but they were tortured, stoned, burnt and crucified. These days they have learnt to keep their distance.

So, my infant yelp is not because of the happiness of taking my first breath.


It is a gasp of disbelief that I may have come so far only to be given what I had before…


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This is the story of what happened to me when anxiety took a grip. I lost my senses, I lost my job, and I lost me. I then turned to writing to find those things that had gone missing. How can you teach when you believe that education is a business that is failing in its primary remit of helping to create a better society? Indeed, how can you teach when you believe that you have nothing of value to pass on? The book/blog is the story of my recovery from the absolute darkness of the early days. It is an Odyssey through my life over the last twelve months and a retracing of my steps to discover how I found myself there. More than all of that, it is a re-evaluation and a rejoicing of all that which I call life. Happy reading and I hope it helps. There is madness, Everyday Madness, and not all of it comes from within.

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